Tonight like so many other night did not go to plan. I wanted to prepare lunch and dinner for tomorrow, tidy and clean, read a bit and blog a bit – yes all that can be condensed into 3 hours.
Let me walk you through what really happened and what a typical night is around here these past few weeks. JJ fell asleep at 7:30 and I had a little unintentional nap which you might think makes me really happy. Well it was one of those short ones that actually just make you grumpy!
Then I did some tidying up and had a decaf coffee during which he work up 4 time over the duration of less than two hours. After I got him down the last time I sat down and opened my blog. I have seriously neglected it with my last post being like a month ago. Then he woke up again. With a grumpy tone to my voice I told James that I am giving up and going to bed.
All he wants is for me to be close by so that he can get cuddles and his boopa.
Although most of my blog posts are about the fun and exciting things we get up to, there is so much more to it than that. This is a 24/7 job with hardly any breaks. Don’t get me wrong, I absolutely love it. But that does not mean that I would not sometimes wish for a little bit more me time or just a few more hours in the day.
He is asleep now, cuddled up next to me. Every time I move, he moves a little too. I am convinced that even if he is sleeping, he still knows that I am here. Even if I am tired and an hour ago wanted to do something else, I have to admit that I am quite honoured that it is me he wants. The bond that has been created between us, when he was growing inside me is incredible and to see that it is still so vital to him makes me smile. This is more important than anything else and I know that one day he will not need me in the same way, so I will do my best to treasure these moments dearly.